fail

no home
no job
no money
no love
no kids
no family


Is this what it's like to hit rock bottom? to realize fully and wholly that every decision you have made thus far has resulted in failure?
This is not 'staying awesome'
this is something much much darker. staying awesome didnt mean anything anyway.
there was a post before this, but it doesn't matter anymore.
I hate it here now. .
I am in Carmel for three and a half days.
so begins my vision quest.


I was raised better than this.